Sunday, August 30, 2009

An Open Letter to Jorge Garcia


I've been out of town for the past 4 days, and it turns out I may have inadvertently screwed myself over as far as the mission goes with my last blog post. Suffice it to say, that I have made the necessary changes so that it no longer paints certain people in the wrong light. It turns out I misread a single word, and that sent this proverbial ball a-rollin'.

I would like to take this opportunity to wholeheartedly apologize to Jorge Garcia, Matthew Fox, and Naveen Andrews. I'm sure shooting in Hawaii is in full swing so I hope this gets to at least one of them. Whereas, the note I received said that the latter two do not "respond to requests," I accidentally read it as "respect requests." In Jorge's defense, it looked like he was running out of room towards the end of the card so the words got run together. I should have been more careful as to what I post on the internet.

Therefore, the mistake was entirely mine. As far as Matthew and Naveen not respecting requests, that is totally unfounded and misrepresented on my part, and again I apologize. I should have known that that was not what Jorge meant seeing as how gracious he's been to all fans (myself included). The bottom line is, I made a mistake and am sincerely, honest-to-God sorry for having misrepresented Jorge Garcia, Matthew Fox, and Naveen Andrews. I hope I haven't done anything to totally undo this mission before anything has actually been done on the actual poster itself. It actually goes to show that you never know who's reading what you post.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Hope, Thy Name is Jorge


Today, I received the following letter in the mail:

Dear Lance,

I'll be happy to sign the poster. I recommend if you send the poster out including a return label and postage inside would make things easier. Also, so stuff doesn't get lost of held up, I suggest you not send it to Matthew or Naveen because I don't think they respond [to] these requests.

Jorge


How awesome is that? I wrote a letter, and Jorge Garcia... Hurley actually wrote a personal letter back to me! I heard he was really good about giving autographs but I didn't know that I was actually going to get a response. I figured I would get one of those template letters. "Dear fan, Thank you for blah-di-blah-di-blah." But this just made my day! And to top it off with a cherry on top, I got a personalized autographed headshot from Jorge as well! Life is good!

Well, I guess it's been confirmed that neither Matthew Fox nor Naveen Andrews will be signing my stuff (at least not through Grass Skirt Productions). I've been told that through other various fans. Plus, I'm willing to let it slide since that cast receives a ton of fan mail. Don't know if it's true but I asked one of those Lost autograph collectors, but apparently it's tough to get the Non-American Cast members to sign since they get all their fan mail from elsewhere.

Fortunately, the holy grails are Terry O'Quinn and Jorge Garcia. What amazes me is that, if his blog is indicative of when he arrived to Hawaii, responding to all his fan mail is the first thing he does when he gets there. Now, that's what you call character.

I'll be writing two more fan letters, which brings my total to 4 that I've sent to Grass Skirt Productions in Hawaii. If I get those 4, then my next goal is 8, then 15, the 16, and you know the drill. So for those of you interested, here is my list (which I will lovingly refer to as Jacob's List) and in no particular order:

1. Jorge Garcia (Hugo "Hurley" Reyes)
2. Terry O'Quinn (John Locke/ Reincarnation of Locke via some as of yet unknown Jacob-like entity)
3. Sam Anderson (Dr. Bernard Nadler, D.D.S.)
4. Michael Emerson (Benjamin Linus/ Dean Moriarty/ Fake Henry Gale)

See you in another life.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Happy Birthday, Walt Lloyd!!!


As promised, here is the latest news when it comes to the mission: Nothing has happened. It’s been a rather uneventful summer, as far as Lost is concerned. I carry the poster around with me everywhere I go in the hopes that fate would send anyone from the Lost universe my way. I even carry two Sharpies in my pocket. I’ve sent several e-mails to numerous famous (at least amongst us fans) bloggers for some tips, and though they’ve all been cordial and helpful, I still came up fruitless.

A couple years ago I went to a record store, not really looking for anything in particular, when I hear a familiar voice by the cashier. Who was it? I kept asking myself that for about 90 seconds when I realized it would have sounded a whole lot more familiar if the man had said, “Previously, on Lost.” It was none other than producer, and co-creator Carlton Cuse. It’s because of that moment that I carry around my poster everywhere I go.

I was walking my dog with my sister and decided to take a different route since the sun was not only in our eyes the whole time, but it was sweltering out. My neighborhood is usually a quiet one. The neighbors keep to themselves, friendly but keeps to themselves. Other than people who live adjacent to us, we really don’t know too many people on our street. One day, my sister and I saw one of our neighbors watering the plants on his front lawn. He smiled at my dog (a regular response with the young pup) and said hi to us. It was none other than Sam Anderson (who plays Bernard Nadler). That’s just another reason to carry that poster wherever I go.

But what can I say? When you come face to face with someone in the cast, you just freeze. I have faltered but have not fallen. I assure you, I will get this done one way or another. By the end of the week, I will hopefully have two more fan letters written asking Michael Emerson and Sam Anderson if they can help me out with the autographs. I’m trying to avoid having my poster sent all the way over to Hawaii to get this done. I’ve got family there, but let’s face it. It’d be soooooo much cooler to meet everyone in person and actually get to talk to them.

Again, if any of you have any tips or leads or might know anybody that works on the set, please, please, please let me know. Season six hasn’t even started yet, but I’m so close to getting this poster signed. Maybe I can get some of the autographs on video. In which case, I’ll put together a short film about my mission. Until then, wish me luck, everyone!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

A Martian Halloween

August 22nd was Ray Bradbury's 89th birthday and he invited all of his fans to the Bookfellows Book Shop in Glendale, CA. I figured that this would be the best time to finally get him to sign at least one of my books. Unfortunately, I hadn't been in Glendale in awhile. It turns out that the only place to find free parking is in the mall. So naturally everyone wanted to park there. In order to get something signed, we had to make a purchase at the bookstore. So, I had limited funds and had to choose over a signed book by Bradury or getting my car towed away for not paying the meter.

Needless to say, I had to leave empty handed, without even a piece of cake to show for (check out my other blog to see why). However, it was cool that it was a giant pumpkin cake. It wasn't a pumpkin flavored cake. It was sculpted in the shape of an actual pumpkin! Maybe one day, I'll get him to sign something, but it was nice to even see him today. And even nicer to see that there was a modest crowd gathered for him. It's tough to find anymore Bradbury fans.

He was one of the first authors that got me into science fiction. And as Sam Weller (his autobiographer) pointed out at Comic-Con, he was one the first authors to write what he wanted despite what the so-called "intellectuals" said. He wrote on subject matter that was considered "childish" and still earned acclaimed success both commercially and critically.

Hopefully, I'll actually get to talk to him one of these days. I've always had this idea that I'd get published one of these days, he'd read my book, ask me to have lunch with him, and we'd talk about movies, Mars, and old books. Maybe I can write it in my memoirs. But until then, I've got this blog. Happy Birthday, Mr. Bradbury! Next stop: Mars.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Song of the Nightingale

It's been a while since I've posted a story. This was one of my few stories that actually had a weird following when I was in college. It was based on a dream that I had. I woke up and wrote it in three hours. Enjoy (Despite the fact that I sounded like a total douche bag just then)!

“Two bodies were found today in Bellevue, California. Officials say they were victims of an apparent murder-suicide. The bodies were identified as…” That’s how the TV reporters back in the City of Angels put it, comfortably sandwiched between the sports and the weather. But I know more of the truth than any anchorperson ever will. The story isn’t that simple and as I learned it never is. I was there when it happened.

The real story starts weeks before, in June, when classes had just ended for the semester. I was on my way out of the city just as summer was making its way into the year. I didn’t know exactly where I was headed, just to a place where ordering a simple cup of coffee didn’t require the ability to know a different language; where life was much simpler. To put it bluntly, my life sucked.

“The grass is always greener on the other side,” my mother always told me. How did she know? As far as I was concerned, that was an answer that I had to find out for myself. That’s what flung me out of college and onto the highway like a worthless scrap of paper carelessly flung in front of a speeding bus.

I had driven far enough out of L.A. so that the skyline had sunk deep beneath the horizon when it happened. Sputtering and struggling, my car finally gave up in the middle of nowhere. There was so much smoke coming from under the hood, I could have used it to signal for help. I had figured a cell phone would be hypocritical in my search for simplicity, rendering me stranded in the middle of the desert. At least I couldn’t see the city from where I was.

I sat there on the side of the road baking for about half an hour when, seemingly out of nowhere, a tow truck had pulled over. It looked like it wasn’t what it was supposed to be, like it wasn’t supposed to be a tow truck but here it was. The truck was old and worn down by the desert like the mighty sphinx of Egypt. Only it was cursed with the backbreaking task of escorting wounded cars to safety. The truck’s most prominent feature was the phrase “Al‘s Automotive” painted on either side in bright emerald paint.

“Ya need help there?” an aged, gruff voice cried from within. It belonged to a rather old, but incredibly large man. On a really good day it looked like he could have reached a height of six-feet-tall. He had wrinkles around his eyes that just over shadowed the bags under them. It looked like he hadn’t shaved in days. His shoulders were broad and flabby, but were masking a somewhat muscular physique. His gut was sloppily packed into his overalls.

“Uh… Um… Yeah, sure,” I stuttered. I was shocked to find anyone else on that abandoned highway.

“Well, hop on in, kid. I’ll take you down to the garage. It isn’t to far from here,” he said as he reached over to open the passenger side door of his truck. He jumped out and proceeded to hitch my car onto the back.

“By they way, my name’s Al,” he told me as he put his halfway smoked guitar back in his mouth to shake my hand.

“I’m Lenny.”

“Where ya headed, Lenny?”

“Actually, I haven’t figured that out yet.”

“Ok then,” Al responded knowing not to take it any further, “Where’d ya come from?”

“A couple of miles east of here, in the middle of the city, L.A. I attend-,” I paused for a second, “-attended college there,” I said, sensing he was an honest man. He pulled the truck over, off of the main highway onto a dusty road. It was as if people who didn’t know if they were coming or going were the ones who built it.

“I used to live in the city myself, up in the hills. But I figured what would I want to live there for… with all the frustration of traffic, all the rude people, and for what? Just to make a decent buck or two?” There was a certain twinkle in his eye when he said that, one I hadn’t noticed before. What he said sounded familiar.

“Don’t get me wrong,” he continued, “I mean I could have been a big shot and live the high life. I had the shot and chose not to take it. I could have been a king… Well at least like a duke in a penthouse suite, but I got married and I didn’t want to raise kids in a place like that. I grew up in a place like that and I don’t want my kids to be like me.”

Al paused after he said that and when he did the bags under his eyes seemed to swell. He then continued ranting on and on about the complications of city life for forty-five minutes. I hung on every word looking at Al the way the wandering Hebrews looked at Moses, the one who led me out of the desert and into a new life. However, the more I looked at Al, I knew that I had seen him before. He reminded me of my father, but he wasn’t my dad.

Al took me to a place called Bellevue, nestled comfortably in the middle of the desert. It looked like a bunch of sandcastles too far for the tide to reach. It was a dusty town where the buildings looked like cubic sand dunes with windows and doors built into them. The roads within the town were jagged strips of weathered asphalt lightly coated with dust.

There was one building however that seemed to stand out. It wasn’t the city hall or the town courthouse or anything like that. It was a huge concrete building at least three times bigger than any of the other buildings I saw entering Bellevue. It looked like it could have been important at one pint in the town’s history but was worn away by time. It had dilapidated into a pale turquoise color with the newest thin on it being the big emerald sign that read “Al’s Automotive” the way it did on the tow truck. The only difference was that it had an arrow pointing to a caricature of the man himself. It just made him look even more familiar.

The rest of the background seemed to blend into the background like tumbleweed. As I looked around at the seeming ghost town around me, I noticed that its citizens were there but not exactly there. Occasionally, they scurried from one building to the next like lizards running in search of some shade. Their lethargic and quiet manner made it easy for them to be overlooked like the whispering winds of the desert.

I walked around the garage and found that there was one other building that didn’t look like it belonged. It was an incredibly large house. Evenly scattered all over the structure were areas where off-white paint should have been. The wood was aged and looked as if it were trying to rebuild itself from the ground up, almost as if it were trying to stand out. The roof was made of neatly arranged Spanish tiles, which were a dull but strangely beautiful red color. The porch was a dull gray and hiding behind several cacti, making the house looked like it was trapped in a green net. I grew curious and wanted to check out the house but Al called me back as I started to walk towards it.

“Do you need to get where you need to get going soon? ‘Cuz it ain’t gonna happen,” Al yelled out as he lifted the hood of my car. He scoffed and then chuckled in disbelief of whatever he found under there.

“No, I’m in no hurry,” I answered, more preoccupied with the rest of the town. I thought I had found my simple life.

As Al proceeded to put my car in his garage I saw how his hair stood on his head like a crown he had found in the trash. He moved with the strength and grace of an aging lion. His light blue jump suit had scattered stains of grease and dirt on it like the mat on a boxing ring after a bloody bout. The fat and expensive looking Cuban he was smoking and the shimmering golden ring on his pinky stuck out of his attire the way his shop did from the rest of the town.

I wanted to explore the town but as soon as I got up it had just occurred to me. I hadn’t been to the bathroom in over three hours; something I quickly became aware of as soon as I tried to move. I went and asked Al, who was already working diligently on my car, where the bathroom was. He waved his hand in some ambiguous direction. I guess I was on my own. There were two doors at the wall he was “pointing” to. I chose the one on the right and pushed the door open slowly. On the wall I saw a younger picture of Al dressed in a nice suit. He was with some other guy in the picture I didn’t know but they both were smiling and had their fists up as if they were ready to box each other.

“Hey, kid. It’s the other door,” he yelled out. Apparently that was not the bathroom. It still made me wonder, who is Al? Where have I seen him before?

I went out to see the rest of that town that I was thinking of making my new home. At the center of the town there was a small church with a tall, thin steeple. It looked like a giant hand trying to make its way out of the ground. Sand was blowing into the belfry, making small tinny noises almost as if it were raining aluminum foil. The building didn’t stand out like the garage or that large house, but it would catch your eye. From where I stood, it seemed that the church was the only spot in town where that house and Al’s garage looked like it belonged in Bellevue. From anywhere else, the structures looked out of place.

The roads spread outwardly from the church like spokes on a bicycle wheel. The business area circled the church while the residential lied just behind that. There were only five roads in Bellevue making the town look like a star from a bird’s eye view. The further down a road I went, the more mundane the houses became. Each one progressively more uniform than the last. Soon after, I didn’t know if I was walking down a straight line or in circles.

Just when I thought I had seen someone to meet, they would scamper into their houses and quickly close their curtains. Apparently, Al was not the only one in town with something to hide.

I began to think about what kind of life I could start in this humble town. I could always learn about cars and get a job at the garage with Al. After all, I had all the time in the world to learn the ins and outs of cars. I thought the town was perfect. It was barely there. It was vague, like a dream I once had as a child, a dream I could barely remember and had forgotten whether I wanted to or not.

It was so quiet in Bellevue you could actually hear the town aging. When I was heading towards the garage I heard the wind whistling in an odd fashion, very unnaturally. The whistling began to sound like weeping in the distance and it eventually coincided with a human voice.

It sounded like someone was humming Amazing Grace. Who was it? It sounded like it was directly behind me, so I turned around. Nobody was there. The humming still continued. It felt like I was interrupting someone’s funeral. I turned around again and still there was nothing there except the dust kicked up by the wind. Confused, I just turned around to go back to the garage. As soon as I turned back, a little old lady stood there as if she had been there all along.

She was a small, skinny woman with the face and hands of a skeleton. She wore black all over and even though we were in the desert she still seemed to be freezing. She slowly made her way towards me, and I stood there petrified, screaming without making a sound. She walked as if she were blind. The closer she came to me I saw that her eyes were of a pale gray and her hair an icy silver. The old lady placed her cold bony hands on my face. Just as I was about to run away, she opened her mouth and spoke an eerie message.

“Two stars have fallen from the sky into the sand,” she whispered in a tired raspy voice, “and you are here to bring them back to the heavens where they belong.”
I walked away slowly and couldn’t take my eyes off of her; the way people just have to look at a car accident. Just then another voice came from behind me, “Don’t scare the boy, Agnes.” I blinked and the old woman disappeared as quickly as she came.

I turned around and saw another woman, much younger than Agnes but still a little older than me. She was dressed in a beautiful off-white dress and looked like an angel who had been wandering the desert and found herself in the middle of Bellevue. She had long chocolate colored hair that came to just beneath her shoulders. She had a few wrinkles by her brown eyes, accented at that moment by her smile. It took the attention away from the hidden bulges beneath them. But all that was trivial compared to how here eyes twinkled and sparkled like the gold ring that Al had on his finger.

“You’re new here, aren’t you? I haven’t seen you around.”

“Well,” I admit I wasn’t as suave as I wanted to be, “my car broke down and this was the nearest place and…”

“Welcome to Bellevue,” she said, smiling softly, “ I apologize for Agnes. She claims to be the town soothsayer.”

I stood there unusually attracted to her, not paying attention to the words coming out of that mouth whose smile made me freeze the way my high school crushes did.

“A soothsayer… like a psychic,” she explained.

“Hmm? Oh yeah… I know, I knew that,” I said in my charming stutter.

“My name’s Sarah, Sarah Gale,” she said, extending her hand out to me.

“I’m Lenny, I kind of need a place to stay for the night. Do you happen to know where I can find one?”

“You can stay at my house. I live with my sister, but she’s in Baltimore right now visiting our mother.”

“I don’t want to be any trouble.”

“No trouble, I live in what used to be a boarding house. It was real famous until they moved the highway. It gets kind of scary all alone at night and it would be lovely to have a nice, young man like you to keep me company,” she said as she reached out to touch my arm flirtatiously. She seemed to be in her forties, a little more than twenty years older than I was. There was something about her that was incredibly, indescribably attractive. It wasn’t just the way she looked that made her beautiful, but something in her smile I couldn’t explain.

“Well, I guess I can stay there for now.”

Sarah took me straight to her house. It was the large one that didn’t seem to fit with the rest of the town. From the inside it looked twice as big. Sarah took me up into a cozy room on the second floor where I could practically see the entire town, but strangely Al’s shop was the first thing you could see from the living room window.

“My room is downstairs if you need anything,” she said. Sarah reminded me of an angel again as she glided outside of my room. She walked gracefully down the stairs as if she were a model posing for a photograph.

I began to unpack and could feel my arms getting heavier and heavier from lifting my bags up the flight of stairs. Unfortunately, my eyelids were not following suit.

“How can I get to sleep?” I thought to myself. When I opened the closet, I saw an old transistor radio and thought that some music would be nice and soothing. I plugged in the radio and somehow found a station worth listening to. I wasn’t sure what the station was called. All I knew was that all it played was slow, soft music. I heard the song My Funny Valentine being played on it, and I turned it up a bit higher so that it filled the room with the melancholy melody. Eventually, I noticed that the music seemed to be in a bit more stereo than I thought this radio was capable of. I turned the radio off, and the singing still continued. The voice was familiar and it came from down the hall.

“Why did you turn that radio off? I don’t mind.” She looked at me with those wanton eyes and I stood there awe-struck.

“Y-Y-You’re the Nightingale,” I nervously uttered.

“I guess my little secret is out. How do you know about that?”

“My friends and I love all that old-time music. When we graduated from high school, we went down to the Cobalt Club. You were there that night, and you sang My Funny Valentine. And I’m a bit embarrassed to mention this but, I’ve had a crush on you ever since.”

“Well,” she softly replied, “I guess the tables have turned, handsome.”

She gave me a wink and invited me to come downstairs for a little supper by candlelight. Sarah told me that she was going to show me around the town the next day. I, of course, was not paying attention because her foot-play was a bit of a distraction.

“So, Sarah, how did a famous jazz singer land in a place like Bellevue?” I asked.

“I was being a good wife. You know, trusting my husband, not asking too many questions,” she said trying to tell me with her eyes to do the same.

“You’re married?” I asked.

“I’ve been meaning to get out of here but,” she continued obviously trying to avoid the question, “I’m stuck. I don’t have any money, and I don’t know how to drive. Even if I did, I wouldn’t have a car to drive away in.” Her leg continued to run slowly up the side of my leg.

I was about to ask her about her husband again, but I began to get a bit more involved with her aggressive advances. Sarah moved closer towards me and she put her hand on my leg. Nervously, I put my hand on her hip and looked deeply into her brown eyes. She took her hand away from my leg and touched my face gently. She put her other hand on my chest and she leaned in to kiss me softly on the lips. Sarah had begun to unbutton my shirt, and as I leaned in again for another kiss she turned her head to blow out the candle. Instead I began to kiss her neck and she took my hand and led me through the dark into her bedroom, a few feet away.

I woke up in the middle of the night and lied there beside Sarah. We were in each other’s arms and all I could focus on was how peaceful she looked, asleep next to me. Her heart beat next to mine and it was rhythmically accompanied by her breathing, which eventually put me back to sleep.

Early the next day, we started our official tour of Bellevue with the church in the center of town. It was practically in front of the house. Sarah began to walk solemnly and slowly around the church as if the pope was staying there for the night.

“I got married here,” she said in a deadpan voice. “I think of my husband every time I see this place. He’s died years ago, ” She then mumbled something to herself.

Sarah wrapped her arms around me as if she were anticipating falling off a cliff. She held my hand tight and I looked up at the tall structure. With one finger she tickled the side of my neck and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Not knowing what to do I returned the favor on her lips.
Then once more out of thin air Agnes, the blind woman, appeared in front of Sarah and me. Of course, I was scared out of my wits but I tried not to show it.

“Don’t play with fire, boy,” she said pointing her finger at me, “You’re going to get burned like the curious moth that drew too closely to the flame. The light may be pretty, but it’s not meant for you to go towards.”

She walked away slowly this time as if she had made the effort to come to the church just to tell me that. I still didn’t know what she was talking about. Sarah looked as if she had gone through this before with Agnes. Still, her eyebrows furrowed just a bit as if she were insulted by the words.

Sarah pulled my attention away from Agnes and showed me the rest of the town. Well, she tried to anyway. She showed me the local businesses and attempted to introduce me to the citizens of Bellevue. However, it seemed the locals didn’t take too kindly to strangers, and it even seemed as if they gave Sarah the cold shoulder. As soon as we entered a shop, the people would scurry like rats into some hiding place.

As my tour of Bellevue came to an end, I realized Sarah had not given me the scoop on Al’s garage. There were still questions I needed answered. Sarah stopped when the turquoise building came into sight. She stopped and stared deeply at the building as if she had been hypnotized.

“You know what Lenny? I have to go and call my sister in Baltimore and see how she’s doing,” she hastily said as she scurried away from the garage, “I’ll meet you back there okay?”

I responded by smiling and waving my hand as I started to walk towards Al’s place. I wanted to see how my car was doing, not that I was planning to leave Bellevue anytime soon. Al wasn’t working on my car when I got there. Instead, I found the door to that other room opened. The light was on. I walked in and I saw him inside drinking a beer. From the look of the empty bottles on the floor, he had drunk a few.

“Hey kid, come on in. I wanna show you somethin’,” he said as he wiped away the obvious tears in his eyes. I stepped inside and he shut the door and on the back of it were frames of several newspaper clippings, each of which had to do with something about a “sandman” and his accomplishments.

“Al ‘the Sandman’ Santino… the boxer? You’re him?” I asked.

“The one and only, Lenny,” he said to me in a broken voice. The smell of alcohol and tobacco filled the room every time he spoke.

“Weren’t you supposed to get a title shot against LaMotta?”

“Yea, but somethin’ came up.”

“Like what?”

“I fell in love, kid. It figures that cupid was the only guy to ever knock me off of my feet,” he took another swig of beer to his lips and he continued to talk about what could have been. I took a crate from the garage and brought it inside to sit on. I slouched down in front of him like a little leaguer about to get a pep talk from the coach.

“I wanted to live my life with this beautiful girl, so I gave up a shot at a belt. It was a $50,000 purse, the largest I ever got offered. I was so cocky then and so young, I could have been great. Who knows though, right? After all, I did make Sugar Ray Robinson look like a bum before he was called ‘Sugar.’ I don’t know if I would have gotten past round 2, now that I look at it,” he put his hand on my shoulder and stuck his chin out. His other arm was in front of him and he looked into space. With his best attempt at an impression of Brando he uttered, “I coulda been a contender. I coulda been a somebody.”

“But you got married? So what? Why couldn’t you have it all?” I asked. He just answered with a nod and I could tell he was trying desperately to hold back tears, but the alcohol wouldn’t let him.

“When I was 20, I got offered a $400 purse, which was a lot of money in those days,” he said as he took another swig of beer, “There was this girl I had been in love with since we was in kindergarten. All of a sudden, I caught her attention when she heard how much I was offered.”

“Did she take your money?”

“Not exactly. I, being the idiot I was, spent it all on her. I bought her this beautiful fur stole. It was mink. When she found out I was out of money and wasn’t being offered anything anytime soon…”

“She left you because you didn’t have any money?”

“I had money, but I guess it wasn’t enough for her. I eventually got over her and met an angel a few years later. She was still in high school and I was in my thirties. She was barely eighteen when we got married. We had a birthday party and wedding reception on the same night. Anyway, I didn’t want to go through that pain again, so I moved here to lead simple life.”

“So what’s wrong? Shouldn’t you be happy with this life, no worries, no grieves?”

“That’s what I thought. Then she just up and left me. I mean she’s still here with me but not with me. But who am I kidding? It’s all my fault.”

“What do you mean?”

“It wasn’t her fault that I don’t have any pictures of her around here. It wasn’t her fault that I have to be drunk to tell her how much I love her. And it was definitely not her fault that I hit her that one time… God, I felt-- feel horrible,” Al explained. Now, he didn’t even try to hold back the tears.

“Take it from me, kid. The words ‘simple’ and ‘life’ are like putting you and a heavyweight in the same ring. It seems tempting to put your money on, but you’re going to lose every time. A simple life don’t exist, Lenny.”

I stood there silently as I saw him break down as easily as my car had done a few days ago. The room smelled of tobacco and alcohol, musty from the cigars in the ashtray in the corner. I didn’t know how to react. It was like watching Superman run away at the sight of danger. It didn’t make any sense. Al stopped crying long enough to pull something out of his overalls. It looked like a picture, and when he looked at it, he smiled and chuckled as if he were holding a newborn baby.

“Would you like to see a picture of my wife?” he asked. I nodded as he handed me the crumpled piece of paper.

As I held that piece of paper in my hand I saw two familiar faces staring happily back at me. One of them was a handsome, young man who had the face of a fighter. It was Al, and neatly packed underneath a tuxedo was the genesis of what was to become his gut. The other face in the picture was that of a beautiful, much younger woman dressed in a white gown. She smiled like an angel, just the way she had when I’d met her a few days ago. I stared in disbelief to find out that Sarah was his wife.

“Um, Al? How long is it going to be for my car to be fixed,” I asked awkwardly interrupting the silence. I wanted to get off the subject, but he didn’t answer. Al was too lost in the picture, practically unaware of the posters and newspaper clippings around him, unaware of the rest of the world.

“Maybe we can resume this conversation tomorrow? I have to go check something, okay?” I still got no answer, just his heavy breathing that was steadily working its way into another crying fit.

I went back to the boarding house and just stayed there until I could figure out what to do. I didn’t know whether I was going to stay or leave. And if I left, then what would become of this couple? If I stayed, I’d just be another wedge driving them further apart. The next day, I spent the whole day in the bedroom trying to make my decision. It was raining lightly outside and I can hear the droplets make there way into the belfry. This time it sounded like chimes from heaven. By sunset, I had packed all my things and made my decision. I was going to leave town and go back to the city. I didn’t belong in Bellevue, but first I had something to do.

“Sarah, can I talk to you for a second?” I asked as I knocked on her bedroom door. I walked in and there she was, wearing white as usual, and lying on one side of her bed, inviting me to sit by her.

“Lenny, Why are you all dressed up?” she said as if she had no care in the world.

“Sarah, I got to go. I got to get out of this town.”

“But I thought you liked it here,” she said as she sprang out of her bed.

“I do, but… I know about Al… your husband,” I said. She reacted by turning around and saying nothing. She looked out the window. “I thought you told me your husband was dead.”

“He is dead… to me… He might as well be.”

“I know the whole story between you two. He told me everything.”

“Al told you everything? Bet he told you that he doesn’t even know why I left him there in that garage. I suppose he said it was my fault.”

“Actually he said everything was his fault.”

“He was drunk wasn’t he? You’re the only guy I know that can’t see through a mechanic’s smile,” she commented, “Al never cared for me, or for what I wanted. He thought he did, but… I wanted to stay in the city. I wanted to be around our friends and family. I wanted him to realize his dreams and work for it. He at least could have said the words ‘I love you’ without the smell of brandy or scotch or beer on his breath. Just like him to runaway when things get the least bit complicated.”

She turned around and the smile on her face had melted away.

“Do you know what it was like living with him?” Anger masked her face filled with pain and anguish. She looked as if she had been punched in the stomach. “He couldn’t please a woman if he had a gun to his head. Sex to Al was like money in a bank. He stuck it in, took it out, and over time he’d lost interest.”

She chuckled a fake chuckle and walked towards me. I didn’t know what to do, I was helpless again, and trying to help a crumbling soul get its pieces back together.

“Everything’s going to be okay between you two. It has to. I mean why else haven’t either of you left Bellevue?” I asked her. She just came over and hugged me. Sarah began to hum My Funny Valentine and we danced slowly as we embraced each other. I was hesitant, but I felt obligated to stay for them even for just a little while more.

“I have a secret,” she whispered in my ear, “The reason I don’t leave is because I still love Al. I don’t want to leave him. You know what? I wanted to sleep in this room because of the view.” She pointed out of the window and the only two structures you could see were Al’s garage and the church. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and then on the lips, because I knew that this relationship, this fling was over as it was meant to be. It was a goodbye kiss. She leaned her head on my shoulder and I could feel a warm tear roll down her cheek onto my neck.

Just then, a window shattered, startling the two of us. A hand black with grease reached into the room to open the window. It was Al, whose eyes were red with tears and alcohol and green with jealously. He staggered as he climbed through the window, a shadow of a man who really wasn’t there.

“Sarah, why don’t you stop this foolishness?” he slurred.

“Al, you’re drunk. I’ll talk to you when you sober up in the morning,” she said as if they had gone through this before.

“And you…” he yelled as he was pointing in my direction. Al looked surprised to find me in that room and yet I can tell that I was the one he was looking for. He ran over to me and started throwing punches. Al was still pretty powerful for a boxer who had been out of the ring since the 60’s. Finally, one actually landed on my chin and another on my gut. I landed with a thud onto the floor, stumbling to the other side of the room. I could barely get up, but I could still see what was going on. I was powerless and horrified at the same time.

Al began crying. He fell to his knees and resembled a lost child trying to find his mother. His bawling echoed through the house. Al turned around and saw Sarah, who looked like an angel again, standing by the window. Her arms were outstretched towards Al, who crawled to her and gave her a tight embrace around the hips as he cried his tears on her dress. Sarah began to sing a soft lullaby. I could barely see tears rolling down her cheeks. The song Heaven calmed the Sandman like a little child. Al turned towards me, his back towards Sarah, and uttered something I couldn’t understand. His eyes seemed to say that he was sorry for what he did and something he was about to do.

Al started crying harder trying to keep up with the pitter-patter of raindrops outside, which started to fall harder. I still lay on the floor like a wounded rabbit doing nothing but watching in disbelief. To my horror, Al took out a single shot .22 pistol that Sarah could not see. I tried to shout to her but I couldn’t even grunt in pain. He turned around, kneeling on the floor so that he faced me. Sarah stood behind him placing her hands on his shoulders sliding them down trying to hug him.

Al’s tears cascaded downs his face like the rain off a clean window. He began blabbering drunkenly in a language that only broken hearts could understand.

“Ahhh! Baww Blloodd Ooaww!” Al yelled out.

He then practically swallowed the entire pistol, holding it with his shivering hand. As if in slow motion, Al pulled the trigger and the blast drilled a hole right through his head. Sarah stood there shocked, her white dress, covered in Al’s blood. Al’s body hit the floor, and Sarah’s shortly followed. I couldn’t see what happened, I crawled over to the both of them and discovered that the barrel was so deep in Al’s mouth that it went right through Al and Sarah.

I sat there in shock at the whole ordeal, but noticed an eerie calm. The sky began to clear just enough for some sunlight to come in. Raindrops from the cross on the steeple sparkled, and the reflection of the sun shone like stars in the heavens. And the green sign on Al’s garage was dulled, overshadowed by the sunset. And as I looked at the couple lying down besides me, they seemed happy. The way they’d fallen into each other’s arms they looked as if they were smiling and, for the first time in a long time, happy. I could still strangely hear Sarah’s melodic singing. I don’t remember much of what happened after that (what with all the press and police) until I went to the garage the next day and found my car as good as new. A familiar voice came to me.

“Did you do what you came to do?” Agnes the soothsayer asked me.

“I think so, Agnes… I think so,” I answered with a half-smile on my face.

I came back the next summer to visit Al and Sarah at the Bellevue cemetery. The people in the town were a lot more outgoing than they used to be. They had grown to be that way since the murder of two celebrities had brought them so much publicity. I think I liked it better when they scurried like rats and not when they dealt like lawyers.

I brought two roses, one for the each of them. I always put one in the shop and one in the boarding house. Agnes, however, was waiting there to remind me that both roses belong in front of the church, to remember them when they were both happy together. Agnes and I had lunch at the diner together and she walked towards the jukebox. She dropped in a dime and played My Funny Valentine.

“You have found what you have been looking for young man?” Agnes asked me, “Have you found your simple life?”

“There’s no such thing, Agnes,” I said as I smiled at her, “but I found a new life back in the city, which is more than I could have asked for.”


The End

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Missing Comic Con

Today is a day that only the most devoted Lost nerd can find interesting as today is August 15 (8/15). I know I said that there would be no updates until the 24th, but I did have some extra time on my hands and wanted to share a video that I put together from this year's Lost panel at Comic Con. Incidentally, I was re-watching season 1 (House of the Rising Sun) where it was mentioned that Walt's birthday was August 24. Coincidence? Probably, but cool nonetheless.

As I was saying, the following video has the song "Life and Death" playing as it was a bittersweet moment to be in Hall H this year. According to producers, Carlton Cuse and Damon Lindelof, there won't be another Lost panel in 2010, so I wonder how many of my new friends I'll see again next year. I wish I could name everyone on the video, but honestly I can't. If you know someone on there, then let me know so proper props can be given. I hope you enjoy!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

The Cellmate

A story that I wrote in the style of the late, great Rod Serling.

“Is that her?” asks the younger of the two.


“That’s her,” Agent Banks answers.


“We’ve got a whole team out here. Why don’t we just take her?”


“We can’t risk it. She might see us coming.”


“I just don’t feel right using this big old tranquilizer gun on a little girl, let alone kidnapping her in broad daylight, no less.”


“If it makes you feel any better, Agent Chase, I assure you that this is no ordinary little girl. Just like for our other subjects, the tranquilizers are absolutely necessary, both for our safety and theirs. Besides, our research team is entirely confident that nothing will be done to intentionally harm her.”


“I should hope not. That’s something that I’d hate to have on my soul come judgment day.” Chase’s voice is not as convinced.


“Our government just simply wants to study her, and others like her. No harm done.” Banks’ voice never quivered, as if he had prepared for years to explain his actions.


“But still--” Agent Chase is interrupted as Agent Banks signals for quiet.


“Hold on, Chase. Steady the gun. She’s within range.”


“She’s in my sight, sir.”


“Fire at will, Rookie.”


Chase wraps his finger around the trigger and squeezes it slowly. THWIP!


“I got her,” Chase said as he puts his radio to his mouth.


“Good,” was all Banks could respond, “Let’s take her in.”


“All units move in,” Chase orders into the radio, “and make it quick.”


Agent Chase and Agent Banks have just acquired a new captive to be poked, prodded, and studied thoroughly. Their new specimen is Jenny Dixon, a young girl in pigtails who was just playing in the park. Her only crime is the fact that she is not just another typical 8-year-old girl. They will take her away to some darkened room to extract what they can from this special youth. But the precocious child has always had a knack for imagining her way out of sticky situations.


Jenny is taken to a darkened room. The only source of light is a flickering fluorescent light that emanates a sickly green halo. There are other cells around the one they had put her in; all empty. Each small enough to be uncomfortable and large enough to not be categorized as entirely cruel. She does not remember much about the trip to this strange place. But she managed to recollect a portion of something that could not have been part of a dream.


“There was a shot,” she thinks to herself, “I was injected with something I remember that for sure. I must’ve woken up when I wasn’t supposed to. Yes! I remember now! They injected something into my neck so I’d go back to sleep.”


Jenny reaches around to the back of her neck. It feels sore.


“Then, I was right. It was no dream. I might as well go to sleep until I can dream up a way out of here.”


“Is anybody out there?” a mysterious voice whispers into the dark room from some unseen corner. Jenny had been awake long enough to see her new companion’s arrival. Agent Banks had escorted him inside.

“I hear breathing. Who else is here? Where am I?” The mysterious voice beckons, straining to hear for an answer.


“My name’s Jenny. I can’t tell you where we are because I don’t know either. But now that you’re here we can get out. What’s your name?”


“I don’t know. I’m looking at a reflection of myself in this tiny mirror on the wall and I can barely remember if this is really what I look like, let alone my name.”


“Maybe they used an extra dose of medicine on you so you wouldn’t ask questions,” Jenny suggested.


“For a little girl, all of this seems to be oddly familiar ground to you.”


“The bad men have been after me for a while, Mister. My mom and dad have managed to keep me away from them my whole life, but I guess I wandered a little too far from the playground the other day.”


“Oh, you poor thing. Don’t worry; I’ll make sure you get out of here. But what would they want with a little girl like you? What’s so special about me for that matter?” Jenny’s cellmate tries to stick his head through the bars in a vain attempt to see what this young damsel in distress looks like.


“We can do things… special things.”


“Like what?” Half of his attention is still on the mirror trying to fully remember the visage facing back at him.


“Magic. Some of us heal, some of us transform, and some of us can make the impossible seem possible. Everybody can do something different.”


“You’re parents… They can do things too?”


“No. But they knew I needed to be protected.”


“This isn’t your first time here, is it?”


“This is the first time the bad men have actually caught me.”


“I’ll make sure they don’t hurt you. But I can’t do anything special. At least, I don’t think I can.”


“Maybe you don’t remember.”


“That’s true! They drugged me so bad that I can’t remember my name, or my face for that matter! Maybe I can’t even remember what it is I did that got them so interested in me. I wonder what it is I could do. Maybe the bad men didn’t want me to remember. Maybe it’s something that can get us out of here.”


“Oh please, mister! Try and remember. I miss my mom and dad so much.”


“I’m trying, Jenny, I’m trying. Don’t fret; I’ll see to it that you see your parents again, and soon… I promise.”


“I can help. I know what you do.”


“How do you know that?”


“It’s what I do. You can make things, anything you want, appear out of nowhere.”


“You can sense other people’s magic, Jenny? I can see why they want you. But I don’t want to use my powers just yet.”


“Why not?”


“I might set off an alarm or something.”


“Just wish for the key and it will appear in your pocket.”


“Patience, Jenny. We don’t want to act too hastily. I can barely remember how to do this myself and I don’t want to put either of us in any more danger than we already are. But we do have to get out of here.”


“Well, why don’t you test yourself, get some practice?”


“You’re a smart a little girl, Jenny. I’ll see if I can get that pen from the table.” Jenny’s cellmate closes his eyes and breathes slowly. Jenny looks impatiently at him and keeps an eye out for an agent. The stranger opens his eyes and reaches into his pocket. The pen is in his hand and he can’t help but smile. He takes the mirror from his cell of the wall to see Jenny, but seeing her anxious eyes welling up with tears brings him back to the matter at hand.


“It’s okay, Jenny,” he assures her, “I think I’m getting the hang of it again.”


“Please, hurry!” she begs him from the reflection of the mirror. He closes his eyes and begins to picture the image of the key in his hand. His slow breathing calms Jenny down, but his heartbeat is so fast it sounds like a hummingbird in his chest. As he opens his eyes he reaches into his pocket.


“Jenny! I did it! I got the key.” He can hear Jenny weeping from the corner of her cell. He pushes his arms through the bars in front of him and reaches around, “Jenny, here! Take the key!”


Her crying abruptly stops and she quickly snaps the key card from his outreached fingertips. She swipes it across the lock and the bars slide open. Jenny steps out and walks towards her cellmate’s cage. Her face is dry with no trace of tears as she hands the key to him. She smiles up innocently at her fellow captive.


“There you go, Jenny,” he says smiling at her, “I’m glad to see you’re not crying anymore. That’s very grown up of you. Now go wait over by the door until I get out.”


Jenny runs toward the door as he swipes the key on his lock only to have it respond with a dull beep. It’s still locked. He tries again and again but the mechanism refuses to cooperate.


“Hold on, Jenny! I’ll be right out. I’ve got to get a different key for me.”


He closes his eyes and reaches into his pocket one more time and finds another key. As he swipes the key, the stranger smiles to himself. The gate slides open and he walks through slowly. Jenny is nowhere to be seen.


“Jenny? Where are you?” he whispers. Just then, he hears footsteps traipsing down the linoleum hallway on the other side of the door. He looks around for a weapon, but nothing other than the pen he materialized earlier. It’s all he has, so he grips it tightly preparing to defend himself. The perspiration on his brow beads as every step thunderously draws near. A sudden bout of vertigo strikes him.


“It must be the drugs again,” he thought to himself. The steps stop for just a brief moment, that to Jenny’s cellmate, seemed to last a bit longer. They start up again only this time they rush. He experiences the dizziness again, and the now running footsteps seem to be coming from directly behind him. He quickly turns his confused face towards the migrating sound and sees the front door.


“How can that be?” he thinks to himself, “I was just looking at the door. How can it be behind me? If it’s behind me now, what was I looking at?” He turns his head again and nearly runs into a concrete wall.


“I’ve got to get out of here!” He turns around again towards the “second” front door just in time to hear the gate lock. He’s back in the cell. Jenny comes around the corner, smiling at him, and waves goodbye as she walks away.


“Jenny! I think I’ve lost it. You’ve got to get out of here. Jenny? Jenny? Are you there?” But Jenny was already gone. Agent Banks runs through the door just as the most severe dizzy spell knocks the cellmate off his feet. He clutches at his pen, his only hope for survival.


“Get away from me!” he yells out.


“You’re going to be okay. Your faculties have been compromised. We understand.”


“You’re telling me. You’re the one who drugged me and put me in this freak asylum. I won’t let you hurt Jenny.”


“The Dixon girl is gone? All units be advised that Jenny Dixon has escaped,” Agent Banks radios. More footsteps approach and Banks’ backup arrives.


“It looks like he’s got a weapon, sir. I wouldn’t approach him just quite yet,” an agent warns.


“It’ll be okay,” Banks assures the agent, “He won’t hurt me. He’s just a little out of it. Besides, that’s not what confuses me.


“What’s that in your hand?” Banks asks through the bars, “Open your hand, rookie. What’s in your hand?”


He opens his hand and sees that there’s nothing there. The pen that he thought had materialized at the speed of thought was still on the desk where he first saw it. He crawls towards the mirror he took earlier and finally sees a face he recognizes, his real face; it’s the face of Agent Chase.


“I’m starting to remember now, sir. What happened to the girl?”


“Young Miss Jenny Dixon got away. She used her power against you.”


“How can sensing other people’s powers be used against me?”


“Sensing other people’s powers, Agent Chase? That’s not what she can do. She has the ability to invade your mind and recreate a world subject to her wildest imagination, an imagination that is impossible to discern from reality when you’re caught in its grips. That is until she chooses to let you go. I’m guessing she let you out of it the moment she got far enough away. Did she say anything to you?”


“Yes, sir. She said ‘goodbye,’” Agent Chase replies. The revelation of Jenny’s true intentions took the wind out of him. Banks reaches into his pocket and swipes the key across the lock freeing Chase. “I’m sorry, sir. I let her get away.”


“Don’t be sorry, Chase,” he assures his confused colleague, “We’ll get her again one day. It was my fault to send you here alone. I underestimated how developed her abilities were.”


It’s just another day at work for Agent Banks, and one unique orientation for his new trainee Agent Chase. Their only error was a mere misjudgment of an 8-year-old girl and the full potential of her imagination. She might be playing in the park or skipping rope on the street like any other normal little girl the next time she is seen. But for Agents Chase and Banks, they know to take extra caution approaching a carefree Jenny Dixon, as it could be just another diversion from a precocious youth who has a knack of imagining her way out of sticky situations.


The End

Keeping Schedule

The following is a short story I wrote when I was in high school (and almost got published in Francis Ford Coppola's magazine, Zoetrope). Enjoy!

Man, I’m tired. I can’t even walk to the bus stop straight. Whoa! Fell off the sidewalk there. I better keep it together until the bus arrives.

Another day, another dollar. What am I going to do when I get home? I think I’ll go put my things away, get out of this filthy uniform, and take a long bath. Then I’ll go make myself some dinner, wash the dishes, and… What else do I have to do? Oh yeah, I have bills to pay. Maybe then I’ll have some time to watch television. I’d probably be too exhausted to though. Maybe I can start on my grocery list for tomorrow. I should start planning my weekend.

I wish my life were a little bit more interesting. Maybe I should subscribe to some sort of magazine. Then I’ll have something to look forward to coming home to. Maybe I should get some sort of pet. An animal companion would be nice… but nah, as much as I would love to have one around its too much hassle to care for one. Besides, I just can’t afford it right now. A plant… hmmm a plant, now that I can manage. It’s possible but I may have to get rid of my shower from time to time. I cannot upset my schedule. I am a very busy person.

Well, I guess the rest of my night is planned out already. Man, where is that bus? What am I so cranky about? It’s never on time. God, I am so tired right now. Hmm, yuck! There’s a funny taste in my mouth. Maybe I can get some gum from the market this weekend. I better remember to add that to my grocery list when I get home. My mouth would never taste like this if it were constantly moving. Ahem! Wow, my throat is filled with phlegm. I probably wouldn’t have been able to speak with anyone under these conditions. It’s a good thing that no one at work talks to me. Otherwise, I’d open my mouth and instead of my voice, there would be that gruesome smell that accompanies that funny taste, blech!!! What a thought!!!

Oh hey, what’s this in my pocket? I guess I did have a stick of gum left over. I must have missed it this morning when I left. I don’t know why I’m always in a hurry. Well, I guess I better save this baby for tomorrow. This saved me a bus trip to the market. I hate messing up my schedule for trifle affairs.

Well, that’s the highlight of my… Oh my god, here she comes. God, she looks so beautiful. Her hair’s all frayed and she’s in her uniform and she looks tired from another day of work. But… oh jeez… I can’t even look at her straight… Her eyes… they’re so beautiful. I bet she has a prettier smile, or maybe even her voice. I don’t think that any other man would feel this way about her. But with my luck, somebody probably already does. But I don’t see a ring. Why can’t I, just once, go up and say hi to her?

Hi Sienna. It’s me. Do you remember me? Do you remember who I am? Do you remember when it rained and we had to share a newspaper, using it as an umbrella? We ran underneath that big tree for cover and quietly waited for the bus. How about the time the bus arrived an hour late and we stood around talking to each other. We laughed at how kooky our lives are without each other.

What about the day we met? You sneezed and I said, “Bless you” and I also told you how beautiful your eyes are. I began to sweat profusely and you began to squirm about in your heavy coat. Then I got even more nervous. You ran your fingers through your hair ever so gracefully. Remember? You smiled… and then I smiled… of course you don’t remember any of it, Sienna… It never happened. Well most of it never happened. God, I wish I could see you smile. Well, none of it happened outside of my little world. My world where I torture myself with the knowledge that you’re not mine and I am not yours.

We see each other practically everyday at this very same spot. It took me weeks maybe even months for me to scrounge up enough courage to say bless you when you sneezed. Even then, you barely heard me, and I wasn’t even facing you. I probably wouldn’t even know your name if it weren’t for that nametag of yours that you wear. I wish I could talk to you the way I talk to myself.

Sometimes, I wonder. Do you ever go home to someone? Boyfriend? Husband? Children? Would you want to if you don’t? I’d like to be the one, to be the one that you come home to every night. What if you don’t like me? Oh god, I wish you could hear me thinking. Maybe, if I concentrate real hard… nothing? I didn’t think that that would work.

What if today is the day? What if today is the day I do or die? Maybe you’ll come up and talk to me. I better be ready for it… Oh well, I can always get more gum this weekend. Ah… That feels much better. No more funny taste in my mouth. Oh God! What if you ask me for a stick of gum? Now I have nothing to offer you. I’m such an idiot… No, maybe you won’t ask me that. Let me see I’ll clear my throat. Ahem. Ah, there, that’s much better. There now, I’m ready to converse with my sidewalk angel.

I’ll just… No, I can’t… not yet. Maybe I can get up earlier and find out what time she gets here in the morning. But what about my schedule?!? That doesn’t matter anymore, not when it comes to my angel. But still… I don’t think I can stand rejection. Especially rejection from her. God when am I…

Oh no! Here comes the bus. I’d say that’s about five or six blocks away. What am I going to do? I have to go talk to her… N-N-No… yea, I have to… uh…I can’t. Today’s not the day… God… my hands are so sweaty.

It’s gotten hotter, whew! Well at least I have dried my hands now. I’ll just reach for the fare. Whoops! I don’t want to trip over the side like I did last time. That was embarrassing. I better hold on to the handrail here… Oh my god! I’m touching her hand! It slipped… by accident! Say something…

“Oh… Uh… Sorry… I’m sorry,” I can’t believe I did that. I’m such an idiot.

“That okay,” Oh man, she talked to me… and she smiled… at me! Well… oh man, do I have the right change? Yep. I can’t believe that just happened. Wow. There are a lot of people on today. No seats are available. Um, whoa, I was very wrong. There’s one right there right beside her.

I guess I have no choice. She’s moving? She must be getting up out of her seat. No wait, she’s giving me the window seat?

“Uh, you don’t have to move…”

“Oh, I don’t mind… My stop comes before yours anyway… Just trying to save some time this way…” Oh my god, she knows me. How else would she know I’m still on the bus when she gets off? Oh, Sienna, I’ve been dreaming of… Who am I kidding? I better not get carried away…

It’s been a couple of blocks already and I haven’t even looked her way let alone start a conversation. I’m so nervous to just turn around and face her. I don’t have to look at her; I can just turn around… No I can’t. At least I’m looking at her now. Well, her reflection at least… in the window. Gee, she looks lonely. Is she looking at me? Nah, she can’t be. Jeez, why can’t I say anything? I think her stop is coming up soon.

“Um, Lance?”

“Huh?” Oh my god, she knows my name? How did she…

“You think you can ring the bell before the third stop for me? I can’t reach it from here.”

“Uh… oh… oh, sure… sure I will,” I can’t stop smiling, and neither can she. Sienna, you’re trying to hide that smile from me. Why? I’m turning a beet red. And what’s this? So is she! Is your heart palpitating as rapidly as mine is? Wait a minute…

“Um, How did you know what my name was?”

“Oh, uh, you used to wear a name tag… didn’t you?”

“Oh yeah…” Wow, I haven’t worn that since about a week after we met, Sienna. That was about a couple months ago.

“Well, Lance, here comes my stop.”

“Oh yes, of course…” I’ll just pull this rope here…

“Thanks.”

“No problem,” We’ve been hiding our smiles the whole way.

“So, Lance, I’ll see you here same time tomorrow?”

“Um… Sure… Definitely… Sienna,” She’s smiling. So beautiful. And she’s biting her lip. Oh, she is so cute! Sienna, you’re almost as red as I am.

“Then it’s a date… bye,” She whispered a goodbye to me. Me! She’s waving at me with her cute little finger. I better wave back. Bye Sienna, my love. ‘Till tomorrow.

Wow… this has been quite a worthwhile day. You know what? I might as well go get some gum at the market today, and while I’m out, why not rent a movie or two. After all the bills will still be here tomorrow for me to pay off. I can always put my schedule on hold.

The End

Monday, August 10, 2009

August 24, 2009



The mission is well-underway and hopefully, by the end of the day, it will be out of my hands and the powers that be will be controlling my poster destiny. This is more of an informal update to let everyone know that I haven't actually quit. I am scheduling the first formal Lost Poster update to be August 24, 2009. Why? Well, for those Lost fans that aren't in the know, that is the day that the cast starts shooting in Hawaii. What this means is that I have two weeks to actually get some cast members to sign it right in front of me! I know that some cast members have moved to Hawaii, making it a little difficult.

But there are some who still live here in Southern California, and I hope to actually get them to sign it. That is, of course, if I can work up the intestinal fortitude to just walk up to them in the middle of the street with my poster in hand without making it look like I was stalking them. I'd rather not resort to TMZ tactics. Although I do find it frustrating that the weekend I wanted to go to Disneyland but couldn't was the weekend Jorge Garcia chose to go to the happiest place on earth (As mentioned on Jorge Garcia’s Blog).

Until August 24, I'll post up some short stories that I've written that will hopefully entertain you. It's fitting since the initial reason for setting up this blogger account was to post my short stories online. Before I sign off, I'd like to give a special thanks to Anil and Karen of TheODI.com Lost Podcast who got me pointed in the right direction for this project.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Destiny Found: The Mission


It happened on September 22, 2004. A phenomenon was unleashed upon the world that proved that anything was possible. Amidst an ocean of reality shows and game shows, LOST dared audiences to start thinking again. Five seasons later, the show is about to complete its run as one of the best shows that has ever been put on television since the T.V. was invented.


Fans (myself among them) are already mourning, the end of a great run of television that actually got people started reading again, started talking again. It wasn’t until I made it to the LOST panel at the 2008 Comic Con in San Diego that I saw the shows ability to connect people. And I’m not just talking about the writers’ obsession with the “six degrees of separation” concept.


People from all over the world can find a character that they relate to, that they can cheer for. Of course there are the storylines that keep audiences guessing week after week, but it’s the characters that draw us into this world. It’s the characters that make us believe that there is an island. When the characters go through their ups and downs, we all go along for the ride. We rooted for Charlie to kick his addictions, none of us dared to tell Locke what he couldn’t do, and there’s no way you can convince me that no one was mourning with Sawyer when Juliet fell down that shaft.


It’s a rare thing to be connected to total strangers, especially when it can be credited to a television show. It’s inspired hope in so many people and I am certainly no exception. I don’t want to bore you with the details of my life but suffice it to say that I need direction. I’ve been running around in circles like Desmond at the end of season 2, and I need the right bearing to get out of this rut.


Comic Con 2009 hosted the final LOST panel not too long ago and participants were given various treats. There were of course the cast members that showed up: Jorge Garcia (Hurley), Michael Emerson (Ben), Nestor Carbonell (Richard), Josh Holloway (Sawyer), and the biggest surprise was Dominic Monaghan. On a side note, I wonder why female cast members never make it out to the convention. Elizabeth Mitchell and Michelle Rodriguez were there, but not at that panel. But I digress.


Among the freebies they were handing out on entry were fliers (a possible Alternate Reality Game to promote the Season 5 Blu-Ray release), pencils, and a poster. The poster was an interesting gift. Fans of the show noticed that the cliffhanger to the Season 5 finale ended with the cut to white with the LOST title in black letters. For 5 years it had always cut to black with white letters making it arguably the best cliffhanger in the show’s run thus far.


This white background was the poster that was handed out at Comic Con. It was on a 13” x 19.5” poster, white background, with dark green letters that read LOST, The Final Season, 2010. And that’s when I got the right bearing. For the longest time in my life, I felt as if nothing was going right. At one point I felt that it was entirely my fault; that I didn’t follow through with anything that I started. It was almost as if I had felt destined to fail at everything that I attempted.


But now I have a new goal. It’s a goal that I intend to reach. When you look at the bigger picture, it might not look like much, but if I could accomplish this then I could feel like I could do anything. Before the end of Season 6, I am going to fill that poster out… with the autographs of at least 4 members of the cast and/or crew of LOST. So if you know anybody that can help me out then let me know. I live right by Burbank, CA where the show is written and edited and it still seems like a daunting task, but I promise you that I will do it.


There will be those who don’t believe I can do it. But in the words of my favorite character on LOST, “Don’t tell me what I can’t do.” Wish me luck, and here’s to the greatest show that has ever been on television.